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Hinga…

 

Relaks…

 

Kalma…

 

Anyare mars? Nabaliw ka na? Pero aminin mo, masaya ka. Di man perfect yung setting kagaya nung pinipicture mo dati, perfect naman yung moment. E masaya ka talaga e. Ba’t ganun. Ayaw mo tumigil, binabalik-balikan mo pa rin. Haaaay. Ito kasi yun pinagkait (naks) sayo. Ito yung hinahanap hanap mo. Ito yung gusto mo. Kaya masaya ka. And for once in your life di ka nag-alala. Di mo inisip yung bukas o yung mga susunod na araw. YouΒ savored the moment. Ninamnam mo te e. Haggard ka. Pero ayos lang. Kasi nga masaya ka. AT natuto kang wag magexpect. Kung yun lang yun e di fine. Basta sumaya ka, kasi kasama mo siya. Kasi siya yung tumupad dun sa mgaΒ Β fairytale fantasies mo (hehehe). Pero yun, basta, pagbutihan mo lang jan sa nararamdaman mo. Please wag ka magigising isang araw na mamamatay ka na lang kasi di mo na siya makausap. No strings attached naman e. Wala naman kayo pinag-usapan. Kung may mabubunga to, e di bonggang bonggang better! Kung wala, life goes on. Kaya mo yan.

 

Basta sa ngayon hinga ka muna. Ang likot ng puso mo e. At siya lang at yung moments niyo yung laman ng isip mo. May thesis ka pa huy. Yun muna ngayon. Tas bukas, kung meron pa, e di go. LANDI NA. =))))

 

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Because I’m tamad to make a long year-ender, I shall summarize my 2010 in 20 sentences and chop that 20 sentences into 10 words. Witty right? Loljk. I’m juzz tamad. πŸ˜€

1. This year, I turned 18.

2. I learned a lot of life lessons, had a lot of realizations, and learned to love myself more.

3. I learned the value of saving. πŸ˜€

4. I learned that the people I’m with are my true friends because though we have a lot of differences and though we’ve experienced a very shaky year, these people held on to me. to us. I love these people. πŸ™‚

5. I learned to accept the sad and brutal realities of life.

6. I’m slowly learning to leave my comfort zone. Baby steps my cherie, baby steps. πŸ™‚

7. I’m starting to love PolSci more and more. πŸ™‚

8. I learned how to set priorities.

9. Sorry but I’m still tamad don’t kill me. ._.

10. I became more responsible. Atleast I think I did. :>>

11. I learned that in life, you have to work hard to get what you want. Pretty things won’t be handed to you on a silver platter.

12. I learned to value and appreciate life more. πŸ™‚

13. I lose some, I gained some. Go figure.

14. I met awesome people who made my life awesome-er. Thank you. πŸ™‚

15. Friends come and go, but those who truly love you will choose to stay.

16. Don’t be too hopeful. Some false hope might kill you. πŸ˜‰

17. Love, love makes the world go ’round. :))) ❀

18. Your family can be the best stress-reliever. πŸ™‚

19. This year I became closer to my other ate, Ate Bambie. Thank you. :>

20. And lastly, when there’s no one in this world gives a f*cking care about your sh*ts, God is there. He will listen. πŸ™‚

Twenty-ten has been very awesome thank you very much. πŸ˜€

Twenty-eleven Β know you’ll be awesomer! Happy Nw Year to everyone out there! Cheers! πŸ˜€

Just so you know. Eventhough I don’t always say this and I don’t always show you how you mean to me, I love you and you’re one hell of a friend that I will never replace. Jeng’s my bestfriend but that doesn’t mean you’re anything less. I love you. Always have, always will. πŸ™‚

 

 

I badly want to talk to you, to tell you how I really feel. Maybe you already noticed some changes in my actions. I don’t want the year to end like this. I want to talk to you but I don’t know how to.

Sabi nga sa slumbook ko nung elementary ako, “what is love?”. At syempre. bilang nagmamaganda ang epek ko nun, nagmamaganda rin ang mga sagot ko. Tipong, “Love is 100% imperfect”, “Love is stupid”, at syempre ang mga cliche na ‘Love is blind”, at ang pagkahaba-habang “Love is like a rosary that is full of mystery”. O diba. Ganda.

Pero ano nga ba ang pag-ibig? Disi-otso anyos na ko. Pwede na kong makulong. Pero di ko pa rin alam ang pag-ibig. Yuck. Sorry na. Hindi ko alam e. Pati ata yung pakiramdam hindi ko alam.

Destiny. Fate. Serendipity.

Naniniwala ako sa mga yan. Ang cute kasi nung thought diba. Parang it will always give you hope. Na there is someone for you. Someone there, waiting, anticipating. Ang saya. Parang ang ganda ganda mo diba.

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Friend 1: Di naman kasi totoo yang destiny na yan.

Me: Malay niyo naman. Ang cute nung thought diba. Parang there’s always something to hope for. πŸ™‚

Friend 2: Ano ka ba. Kaya nga may free will ka diba. You’re free to choose. Kaya nga yung mga tao they end up together kasi pinipili nila ang isa’t isa.

Me: E pano kung pumili ako, tas di ako pinili. Ang sakit kaya nun. Ang sakit mareject. Takot ako sa rejection e.

Friend 1: Pero mas masakit yung aasa ka, tapos pag di nameet yung expectations mo, madedepress ka. Grabe ka pa naman pag nadepress.

Me: E sabi nga ni Sir, 2 years from now daw makikilala ko na siya. Ang cute nun diba.

Friend 1: Pano kung 2 years from now walang dumating? E di malulungkot ka.

Friend 2: Kaya nga. So kahit may magustuhan ka ngayon, sasabihin mong di pwede yun kasi 2 years from now pa dapat. Isipin mo nga. Isasara mo puso mo. Ano ka ba.

Me: Hayaan niyo muna ko. Masaya pa naman ako e.

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Me: Ang cute kaya nung thought ng destiny. Gusto ko lahat cute e.

Friend 3: Yung totoo, anong laman ng utak mo?

Me: Butterflies. 😐

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Sabi nila masyado akong idealist. Siguro nga. Malamang tama sila. Nakakalungkot. Pero I find comfort sa ganun e. Eto, etong mga naiisip ko, lahat to nasa comfort zone ko. At oo, takot akong lumabas dun. Takot akong umalis sa comfort zone ko. Takot akong masaktan. Sino ba namang hindi diba. Ang weird nga e, adventurous ako pero takot akong mag-take ng risk. Nakakainis. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako ganito, pero alam kong mali na. Disi-otso na ko. At alam kong medyo (yes medyo lang :)) inappropriate na yung ganito. Pero anong magagawa ko? Hindi ko alam. Di ko alam talaga.

Gusto ko ng kiligin. Gusto ko ng may makausap. Gusto ko ng tumalon yung puso ko sa saya. Sabi ko naman kasi magtaxi ka na. Alisin mo na ko dito sa comfort zone ko. Turuan mo na kong magtake ng risk. Hay. Ang bagal mo ever. Baka pagong ka talaga.

What is love ba? 😦

I will write my yesterday in bullets

  • went to EKs’s for her debut. Party party!
  • woke up late so bla, I did not make ligo. πŸ˜›
  • went at Cleve’s first to meet TUKS there and to make ligo. xDDD
  • had the ride of our life. HELLO EKS WHERE DO YOU LIVE? =)))))
  • WHY THE HELL ARE WE IN BULACAN? =))))))))
  • long tricycle ride is long.
  • EKS ANG LAYO NG BAHAY MO SERYOSO
  • from Cherubin Homes, Bulacan, we passed through a gate then poof, we’re in North Caloocan. O_o
  • instant make-up artist/party planner/organizer/debutante’s mom
  • COME HERE RUDE BOY BOY!
  • PARTY! PARTY!
  • sang my song. I MUST STICK WIT UUUUUUUUU!
  • sleep over with TUKS minus the sleep. HELLO KASABAWAN, I mean LEI, I missed you. :> Hello Mudir I missed you too. :>
  • heart to heart TUKSiTALK
  • I MISSED TUKS. πŸ™‚ :’)
  • tawanang walang humpay wagas laaaaaang. “MAY PHRASES NA PALA SA PINOY HENYO” =)))))))))))))
  • slept at 5am. 4:30am: “Jogging tayo ng 5am. Wag na matulog.” 4:45aam: “Wag ng magjogging walang rubber shoes matulog na tayo.” =)))))
  • woken up by the sound of plates crashing.
  • FOOD OVERLOOOOOOAD
  • ligo sa labas ng bahay laro-laro ang fun ulitin natin ang fun ang fun ang fuuuuun!
  • loooooooong ride again. 😐
  • MEN I’M TIRED. 😐 But meh, YESTERDAY AND TODAY WAS AWESOME. πŸ™‚ :> :’)

TUKS is family. ❀ I love you. πŸ™‚

Someone better is bound to take his/her place. I’m glad I’m looking at things way more positive now than before. Well, what do you know, I guess I’m growing up. πŸ™‚

Dear Lord,

Thank you for making me realize all this in a day. Thank you for not letting me dwell on the negative stuffs. And thank you for giving me hope that a brighter day is sure to come. I know you are with me. I trust you and I love you. Thank you. πŸ™‚

Love a sweet little girl (who’s slowly turning into a lady),

Yel. πŸ™‚

P.S. Please help me in my exams. =)))) Thank youuuuu! :*

Books.

Yes.

I bought half a dozen.

Yey.

Yey for sale.

Yey for Powerbooks.

Yey for mystery-thriller books.

I don’t know why but I am a fan of this type of fiction.

It makes my mind work.

And it’s fun guessing who the criminal is. πŸ™‚

And now I will read.

Goodnight. ❀


Yellie Jelly :D


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